In keeping with my new commitment to the blog, this week’s topic is “faith”. What perfect timing! This past week has held so many moments that have required me to examine my faith and how I deal with change and uncertainty (I’ll write about the actual week another time!!).
Recently, I was sitting with a friend and she compared life to a roller coaster: the ups and downs, the excitement and anticipation. I had another friend write an article about how waiting for something you long for can also feel like a roller coaster (GREAT post that you can find here). This made me start thinking more about this whole roller coaster/life idea.
Things I fear from the bottom of my stomach:
Scuba diving, parachuting and dancing in front of large crowds of people (I could have nightmares about that last one!!)
Things I love beyond measure:
Jet skiing, watching OTHER people dance and ROLLER COASTERS
I love roller coasters. From the very first one until now. The excitement, the speed, the ups and downs and twists and turns (so grateful I do not have my husband’s motion sickness!). I remember my Dad taking me on my first roller coaster at a little amusement park called Indiana Beach. I sat in front of him in the little car as it slowly made it’s way up the first big hill. I was thrilled by every exciting, teeth-jarring moment of that two minute ride. I was with my Dad, the sun was shining and there was absolutely nothing else to think about except the next turn or dip.
I don’t react to life in the same way at all. The roller coaster starts up with that chug-chug-chug, the news comes of an unexpected turn of events, and my stomach drops. I am immediately filled with fear. I want to know what is coming next. I want the full blue print of the ride. How is this all going to work out? What exactly should I prepare for? How can I best control this situation so that I can determine the outcome?
Why can I relax and enjoy a roller coaster but become terrified at the ups and downs of life? Of course, the consequences of life feel a bit more serious than the consequences of an amusement ride. Well, unless you consider that you could actually fall out of the ride if it isn’t built correctly! Which made me start thinking…I trust the roller coaster. Not exactly the coaster itself, but the builder. I trust the engineer. Why would someone build a ride only to hurt it’s passengers? The engineer has way too much invested, even on a selfish level, to build a roller coaster that is just going to harm people.
I have an Engineer overseeing my life, my “roller coaster”, who is not invested for selfish reasons. Like my Dad on that first ride so long ago, God has not only designed the coaster, but now sits behind me, keeping me safe, enjoying every moment of the ride along with me.
One of my favorite moments on a coaster is when you have chugged-chugged-chugged your way to the very top, just before the coaster lets loose into all of the turns and loops. There is a moment where the ride pauses, and you can look around and see for miles. Everything is quiet and everyone is filled with anticipation for the ride ahead. I usually look over at Alex (he’s not motion sick yet at this point), and/or the kids, and smile…and then we put our hands in the air and get ready to scream with absolute abandon and glee.
This is the way I want to do life. Trusting the Engineer. Looking around at the beauty in the quiet moments at the peaks. Then, having the trust and peace that leads to all of the laughter, joy (and squealing) that comes from just enjoying the ride.
“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.” Isaiah 43:2
“For I am the LORD your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.” Isaiah 43:13
From our last time at Disney… enjoying the ride!